This working out of the home thing.
I’ve had a hard time getting used to it. I suspect mostly because every time I turn around there is a snow day and I can’t work or scheduled off day and I can’t work. Or someone is sick and I can’t work.
I think I have managed maybe 2 whole weeks of work since I started 10 weeks ago.
Every other week has had at least one day off.
How do people with ‘regular’ jobs do this? I get away with it because this is a small company run by an old boss & I am sort of along the lines of a bonus employee. If I am there I help things go more smoothly, more calls get answered & lots of neglected data stuff gets done. But if I am not there everything still works, calls still get answered & none of the data stuff is time sensitive. I’m hourly with no benefits. I’m the only one who really ‘suffers’ by my missing a day
So my regular & persistent absenteeism has not cost me my job.
Which it totally would have anywhere else.
I have no doubts about this. I have it good & I know it.
But I still find it all unsettling.
For 10 years I did what I wanted, when I wanted, (or when it fit in around naptime, lunch & snack). If I felt like sleeping in I could pop in a Land Before Time movie and go back to bed for 90 minutes and later just go back to bed after the kids caught the bus. I cooked, I cleaned, I scrapped, I shopped, I paid bills, I wasted time on the internet.
It was fun, if a little lonely.
I missed lunch the most. Going out to lunch with co-workers & having random conversations was the highlight of my work day and I missed it terribly as a stay at home mom.
I’m glad to have lunch again, to get a paycheck, to have work to do. I missed the busy-ness of a job.
But I miss the free time now.
I thought I would have adjusted by now. I thought I would have had a routine for cleaning & scrapping when I am home established or at least begun by now. But I have nothing.
Everyday I come home at 3:30 with a half hour before the boys arrive and wonder what I ought to be doing – prepping dinner? mopping floors? reading blogs? doing laundry? cleaning the bathrooms? scrapping or editing photos?
I had a routine. I like routines. I need them if I am going to function.
I adapted to having a newborn quickly.
I adapted to having a newborn and a 15 month old fairly easily, even with the gall bladder attacks
But I just can’t seem to get into the groove of this new constantly changing arrangement.
I haven’t been posting or commenting much lately & I apologize.
Sooner or later I will sort this all out. Right?