Know what happens when you have a whacked jaw, jacked shoulder & messed up arm and you simultaneously stop going to your chiropractor appointments AND also start spending an extra 2 or so hours a day on the computer?
All those aches & pains that had gone away decide to come back.
Yeah, A Week in the Life has had an effect on me in many ways.
I have two more pages to do.
Those two pages are just of 6 simple lists, no photos, just centered text.
I’ve already designed the template.
But not only did those 2 extra hours take their toll on my body, but them as well as the time taking the photos as well have left the house a mess, and I have a long list of calls I need to make, and stuff to return, and lets not discuss the grocery issue.
Also, Thursday I had a CT scan of that lump I have had for at least 7 years, possibly 9 and Monday I was told they are almost certain it is an endometrial lump.
They say they can’t imagine it’s cancer but they can’t swear to it, you know, just in case their imagination turns out to not be as vivid as it ought to have been.
So I could choose between having a needle biopsy done or just having it removed. Or nothing. Up to me, but the biopsy at least is recommended. Just to be sure what we’re dealing with. But again, almost positive it’s an endometrial lump.
I opted for the removal. If I hadn’t finally decided enough was enough last month I wouldn’t have started this whole process.
Then the surgeon floors me with this option:
“Do you want to be awake, with a mild sedative & local anesthetic? Or do you want the full anesthetic?”
This was right after I explained to him that I have been under the knife 3 times & on all 3 occasions I had full blown hysterics in pre op that lasted from signing the consent forms until I was sedated in the OR.
Naturally I was all “knock me the hell out! In pre op! Let me sign something now that give DH the right to sign the damn consent form and put me out as soon as I show up.”
Turns out ‘rational adults’ can’t do that and I tried to explain that actually I’m pretty much irrational from the moment I arrive at the hospital and am perfectly willing to start jabbering in tongues if it will prove my point.
Apparently just thinking the idea up proves me rational.
Now that I have had time to think about though I am reconsidering my stance. Part of the whole hysteria thing is from the “you could die” language of the consent forms. It’s terrifying. Seriously. Just thinking about being taken into the OR, right now, while I type this is making my hands shake. Explaining it to the doc had me in tears.
But I am thinking I made that call while under the influence of remembered terror and maybe I should think about the awake option.
It’s a straightforward incision. The lump I sonly about 2 inches long and is sitting on a muscle. The doc thinks the whole thing should take about 30 minutes, 45 at most. My post op recovery instructions are pretty much “don’t do any ab workouts for a week.” I can see why the option to be awake is there, it’s not really an unreasonable choice.
It’s not organ removal and I was awake for the baby removal after all. Granted I was in hysterics until the spinal block kicked in but after that I was joking with the ob & nurses about how hungry I was. And it’s not like they are going to let me see it done.
I do worry about the local not taking though. A spinal block is one thing, a couple shots of lidocane or whatever they are using these days, is something else entirely. I have had a mole cut out & removed so I am not unfamiliar with the process on a smaller scale
What would you do, given the option?